MADDY'S INNER MOST THOUGHTS

2008 better be great

2008-01-15T19:33:56Z

Ok....back at ma's house....livin in London didn't turn out quite like i hoped. I had another failed relationship...and gained quite a bit more debt. Now I'm basically back at ma's, gonna get a job...possibly my old job or another. Pay my bills.....catch up (which will prob take me a few months!!!) and then I may after getting my life together move back to London. London was a great place to live...but I started dating a roommate and it was practically one of the worst decisions I've ever made in my life. I've definantly learned a couple things from this experience that I plan to take with me for the rest of my life. I'm happy '07 is over....I am leaving it behind and having a fresh start.

Unforgiving

2007-10-11T22:25:01Z

The course I was starting seemed great at first....everything it had to offer would have been great for me... but I went the first day and every single person in the room was over 30...I felt like a black sheep....besides it's a course that is offered through an employment center and I have a feeling everyone attending the course didn't really want to be there...they had to be for their Ontario works check. The first day we had to work in a group and come up with some descriptive words regarding a daily task such as making a sandwich...absolutely nobody in my group had any ideas....I had to answer all the questions and finally after that I had to say what the "group" came up with infront of the whole class. I just felt like I was too smart to be there....honestly it sounds bad but it's true. I defantly would have shined in that class...being teacher's pet isn't all that great when you have no competition. So I decided I'm not wasting my time with that and I'm just going to gain my experience from actually working....

Not what it seemed to be

2007-10-01T00:23:49Z

Living in a new town has it's pros and cons. I only thought positive which is how I usually am. Sure London has alot more to offer than the small town of Ingersoll, but since I've been here for 3 months there has been more cons than I even thought possible. First of all I find myself paying all the bills, and always getting the groceries. Not only that but I'm not even on good terms with my roommate. He thinks he controls the place just because his mother is the landlord. It's a terrible position I've gotten myself into and now I almost feel trapped. I hate being here more than anything and I wish I could just up and leave but it's far from posible financially right now. I've never felt like I was stuck somewhere and I don't like it.
On more of a positive note, I'm begining my property maintenance training program. Actually my first day is tomorrow... I'm nervous and excited at the same time. Nervous to meet a new group of people...and excited that I'm on my way to working at the hospital. I hope my living situation doesn't break me. I hate this situation.
I hope things get better for me...

Out and About

2007-07-05T18:50:18Z

I'm happy to be living in a new city. Getting out of a small town is such a relief. I miss my pets, and I miss McDonalds not being right at the corner...but everything else i could do without.
I just left a pretty bad relationship...even though it was short (maybe 7 months) but feels like it was several years...
Relocating is probably the best thing for me at this point. I'm feeling alot more happier and less stressed out.
Things are lookin up for me FINALLY!!!!

Time for Sun Tanning

2007-05-11T01:07:04Z

I'm a big fan of cool breezes, lawn chairs, and clear skies. Tanning is one of my most favourite things to do in the summer. It's relaxing and it makes me feel alot better. Especially when times are stressful. I'd love to buy a hammock. Mom doesn't have 2 trees in the backyard but there are hammocks with stands. I haven't seen any yet but I know when I see one I'm gonna wanna get it. I'm hoping I'll have a good tan in a week. I bought new Sunboat tanning lotion....I have a couple days off this week so I'll be able to fit some time in for tanning. I work mostly evening for the rest of the week....

Yay

2007-04-10T04:43:42Z

Things are begining to get better. I just went for an interview an ended up getting the job. Things will be alot better. Money wise anyway.
My dog Jordie celebrates his birthday on the 15th, Same with Ozzy. I just have their birthday together because I got them both in June (1 year apart) and they were both around 2 months. Jordie is going to be 7 and Ozzy's gonna be 6!! My babies are growing up so fast!!!
I talked to my Dad on the phone a couple nights ago. He called all drunk aroung 1 a.m. Not an unusual thing for him to do...It was his birthday. So at least I got to wish him a Happy Birthday even though when my birthday comes around he never calls. :( oh well he told me Grandma was in the hospital. I thought it was going to be serious so I called her the next day and she said everything was fine. She is just at a hospital program for older folks.
Can't wait for the summer...What's with all this snow????

hey

2007-03-24T04:52:44Z

just testing

Meow

2007-03-23T20:03:52Z

My baby kits Ozzy and Sharon. The cutest things in the world...relaxing on a shady afternoon.

Going nowhere fast

2007-03-21T05:36:41Z

Great luck I have. The past couple days for me have been close to the worst I've had in my life. I have been having the worst of luck in everything. My job searches have been crap. Thanks Ingersoll for being so prosperous. My relationship with a guy I thought I loved have pretty much gone down the drain. I've been even more stressed and my eyes are burning because I've been crying so friggin much. I just wish things will start going good for me. I hope I get a job soon. And I hope all the arguing that has been going on lately between me and some of my friends will stop. All I want is to feel happy about everything all at once. I thought this year would be good for me but it just seems like there hasn't been much of anything good happening for me lately. Hopefully it starts...

MADDZ

Feelin' a little sick

2007-02-08T21:18:55Z

UUUUGGHHH... Why me? Coughing is my worst enemy. I remember having somewhat of a cold at the begining of the winter. Now I think I may have another. What better to end this wonderful season off with. It could be my fault...My coats look like shirts and I walk outside with wet hair more than twice a week!!! lol I've been loading up on the cough syrup, infact I feel pretty tired right now. I'm sure I'll sleep like a baby tonight. A little Neocitran and some halls and I'll be out like a light.

I heard of this recipe for a cough/cold drink. I may test it out and see what happens.

Ingredients:
1 quart apple juice
1 quart cranberry juice
2 or more cinnamon sticks

Directions:

Put all the above into pan and simmer. Serve warm.

hello

2007-02-06T04:01:07Z

okok now i have myspace....msn space and now live journal. gosh so many diaries. I tend to use sites like these for the blogs. It's a great way to let your thoughts out without wasting so much paper lol. well I'm excited about having a site where most of my friends wouldnt be able to find me. I'm hoping to join a few groups on this site and see how things go. My sister likes this site and she recommended it to me. I began an account but never used it often. But I've been screwing around with the site for a little bit and i don't find it all that bad. I just have to get used to it.
MADDZ